My 3 Biggest Fears About Adulting With Autism
Hiya, I started this website back in September and now it is December and I still haven't published a post!
I've been thinking today about why I've been putting it off for so long and what to do about this particular case of "Writer's Block".
Do I know enough?
I guess my main problem with writing about Adulting with Autism as opposed to anything else I write about is that it's so personal, and so close to my heart. I really want and need this information to be out there but I am very conscious that I may get negative feedback.
I don't want to appear to be a know it all or to tell people how they are feeling. I know that I have Autism, have worked with children and Adults with Autism, and 2 of my children have Autism so that puts me in a relatively good place to start but I am still worried nonetheless.
What can I actually write about?
I want to be able to write about the things that need to change, the unfair treatment of Adults with Autism in the workplace for example. I want to be able to give people a safe place to talk and ask questions. I want people to know that there's nothing wrong with them - that it's not about being "cured" or "fixed".
It's about learning what strategies work for you, how you find your own path through life. In essence, I want to make the platform that I needed, and still need - there are still so many parts of my life that I am learning are probably down to my Autism.
Things that I had no idea were different to anyone else - and I'm a 37-year-old mum of 4!!
Can I really commit to creating a steady stream of informative posts for people who may be relying on them? Can I cope with the pressure of feeling like I will be letting down the very people I want to help if I can't manage? I also have ADHD which means I get bored, I have special interests and I hyper focus but then I get bored - is this just one of those times? All the reasons I want to create this website are the same reasons that are holding me back. How can I commit to taking on such a massive task when sometimes I forget to brush my teeth in the morning or I have a complete meltdown when I can't find my Dice!!
My husband says ....
He says that the reason I am finding it so hard is that it's very close to the bone, with my other websites;(myhealthonabudget.com, budgetbargainsuk.com, addictedtoice.com) I can write about things that are not that important to me, things that won't hurt if I get roasted for it! This is my whole life and I'm desperate for it to work and to really help people. He says I will be opening myself up completely and that is terrifying - he's spot on!
I have to do this and I have to give it my best shot! Hopefully anyone who comes to this site will understand that I have Autism and ADHD, and I also have a very busy life! I know that this is something that is needed, I know that the majority of the information out there is focused towards parents trying to cope with their Autistic Kids! Those kids grow up and there's a lot of us, we might not look like we're having the issues that we're having, we may not even see them as issues ourselves - but if these things can be made easier, why not give it a try?
Please, please comment below and let me know what you think. I really would value your thoughts, but try to be nice, I'm feeling a little sensitive over this topic.